If it really bothers you, we can ask later. Not right now. I need to process my cousin coming over to my house and telling me she was a god. A disaster of a god, from the sounds of it.
[He went quiet again. While this was no excuse for the way she handled things in the past, he knew how mad grief could drive a person. He'd only realized how it felt when he lost Haurchefant and it felt as though every ilm of him, inside and out, had been beat down and down and down and every time he looked up he would be beaten again.
It weighed. It hurt. To this day it followed him, made him afraid to lose what he had here these moments listening to his love talk.
But even then.]
Change is inevitable in all walks of life, to say nothing of an entire country. [His tone was somber, knowing. But the universal constant that was change haunted him as much as the grief.]
[And Yusuke understands why this past Ei would think she'd be safe if she could just keep things the same, and he loves his cousin in this life, but all the same...]
I didn't ask how long she let that go on, but it was probably longer than it should have. At least here she's...taking steps now.
[Takame didn't know his cousin that well yet, but he had something he could understand about her now surely.]
Yes... I'm relieved that she's made this decision. And that she has a colleague who assisted her in making it. [Whoever they may be, even if another former God, as things stood now it was better for Ei to evolve in this way.]
You know, I gave up trying to get her out of the house, once we were over here and the court cases were done. I didn't know how to, and she was the one who got me out of Madarame's, so I just...
I can only assume things must have been different if she spoke with someone from her past life. I have all of my original memories... all I am able to do is imagine what it is like.
[And he wasn't good at that. Empathizing in such a way. Empathy in general was hard for him to identify when he did have bouts of it.
It hurt him that he couldn't comfort his boyfriend better than this. Ever the man of action, he leaned over to kiss him on the forehead.]
Regardless, I understand what you are saying. [He could offer no advice, always being one on the back foot for situations of his own. Instead he laid down on his back on the couch, bringing Yusuke up to lay against his chest rather than his lap. It made for easier and more comfortable cuddling okay.
And that was all Takame could offer. It was something. He would listen.]
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If it really bothers you, we can ask later. Not right now. I need to process my cousin coming over to my house and telling me she was a god. A disaster of a god, from the sounds of it.
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[Well guess what he's also getting hair pets because that always helped Takame on days like this.]
... A disaster of a God? I'm, ah, not sure I understand. [Which is to say that doesn't narrow it down, most gods he knows are fucking disasters.]
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Ei, no.]
Yusuke, I apologize for, ah, speaking ill of your cousin but... how would something of that nature possibly run a country effectively?
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[He's trying to hard to justify this and make his boyfriend's cousin not look like a fucking mess and failing, bless his heart.]
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[He went quiet again. While this was no excuse for the way she handled things in the past, he knew how mad grief could drive a person. He'd only realized how it felt when he lost Haurchefant and it felt as though every ilm of him, inside and out, had been beat down and down and down and every time he looked up he would be beaten again.
It weighed. It hurt. To this day it followed him, made him afraid to lose what he had here these moments listening to his love talk.
But even then.]
Change is inevitable in all walks of life, to say nothing of an entire country. [His tone was somber, knowing. But the universal constant that was change haunted him as much as the grief.]
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[And Yusuke understands why this past Ei would think she'd be safe if she could just keep things the same, and he loves his cousin in this life, but all the same...]
I didn't ask how long she let that go on, but it was probably longer than it should have. At least here she's...taking steps now.
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Yes... I'm relieved that she's made this decision. And that she has a colleague who assisted her in making it. [Whoever they may be, even if another former God, as things stood now it was better for Ei to evolve in this way.]
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[Couldn't. Didn't want to push his luck.
And now he feels like he failed.]
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Even if she did not come out, you've held concern for her wellbeing in your heart. That counts for something, I believe. You still cared about her.
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[And he wasn't good at that. Empathizing in such a way. Empathy in general was hard for him to identify when he did have bouts of it.
It hurt him that he couldn't comfort his boyfriend better than this. Ever the man of action, he leaned over to kiss him on the forehead.]
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Still. She couldn't try to be less of a shut-in for her cousin, but for a random other pers--mm. That's not fair to say.
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Regardless, I understand what you are saying. [He could offer no advice, always being one on the back foot for situations of his own. Instead he laid down on his back on the couch, bringing Yusuke up to lay against his chest rather than his lap. It made for easier and more comfortable cuddling okay.
And that was all Takame could offer. It was something. He would listen.]
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Thank you, Takame.
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Of course.