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[hoshikiri]

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[stripartist]

That was exactly what I said. It turns out that it did not, actually, run it that effectively.

[hoshikiri]

I understand what you mean by disaster now... Perhaps she... had her reasons?

[He's trying to hard to justify this and make his boyfriend's cousin not look like a fucking mess and failing, bless his heart.]

[stripartist]

Her reasons were grief. She did not want things to change after losing her sister in that life.

[hoshikiri]

...

[He went quiet again. While this was no excuse for the way she handled things in the past, he knew how mad grief could drive a person. He'd only realized how it felt when he lost Haurchefant and it felt as though every ilm of him, inside and out, had been beat down and down and down and every time he looked up he would be beaten again.

It weighed. It hurt. To this day it followed him, made him afraid to lose what he had here these moments listening to his love talk.

But even then.]

Change is inevitable in all walks of life, to say nothing of an entire country. [His tone was somber, knowing. But the universal constant that was change haunted him as much as the grief.]

[stripartist]

Mm.

[And Yusuke understands why this past Ei would think she'd be safe if she could just keep things the same, and he loves his cousin in this life, but all the same...]

I didn't ask how long she let that go on, but it was probably longer than it should have. At least here she's...taking steps now.

[hoshikiri]

[Takame didn't know his cousin that well yet, but he had something he could understand about her now surely.]

Yes... I'm relieved that she's made this decision. And that she has a colleague who assisted her in making it. [Whoever they may be, even if another former God, as things stood now it was better for Ei to evolve in this way.]

[stripartist]

You know, I gave up trying to get her out of the house, once we were over here and the court cases were done. I didn't know how to, and she was the one who got me out of Madarame's, so I just...

[Couldn't. Didn't want to push his luck.

And now he feels like he failed.]

[hoshikiri]

Yusuke... [He knew that feeling of failure. Perhaps he would not say this to himself, but to Yusuke he would.]

Even if she did not come out, you've held concern for her wellbeing in your heart. That counts for something, I believe. You still cared about her.

[stripartist]

...still. One conversation with someone I've never even met and she's...trying.

[hoshikiri]

I can only assume things must have been different if she spoke with someone from her past life. I have all of my original memories... all I am able to do is imagine what it is like.

[And he wasn't good at that. Empathizing in such a way. Empathy in general was hard for him to identify when he did have bouts of it.

It hurt him that he couldn't comfort his boyfriend better than this. Ever the man of action, he leaned over to kiss him on the forehead.]

[stripartist]

[The kiss helps.]

Still. She couldn't try to be less of a shut-in for her cousin, but for a random other pers--mm. That's not fair to say.

[hoshikiri]

[Well he'll get a second one too, then.]

Regardless, I understand what you are saying. [He could offer no advice, always being one on the back foot for situations of his own. Instead he laid down on his back on the couch, bringing Yusuke up to lay against his chest rather than his lap. It made for easier and more comfortable cuddling okay.

And that was all Takame could offer. It was something. He would listen.]

[stripartist]

[Better cuddles is always good, and Yusuke just sighs and drops his head on Takame's shoulder.]

Thank you, Takame.

[hoshikiri]

[And Takame just runs a hand through Yusuke's growing hair, wrapping his tail around the both of them.]

Of course.