I'll be fine, I think. [lol. lmao, even. you may even say rofl.] This began last month and I was unsure what it was. The more I considered it, the less I could dismiss it as coincidence.
I didn't want to concern anyone, so I felt it best to keep the rest of what I said private. I'm sorry.
There's no reason to apologize for that, it isn't like you did anything wrong. I worry about my friends because I care about them, so if there's something bothering you I'd want to know. Even if there's not much I can do but listen.
[He prepares for the scoldings with the apologies not the scoldings FOR the apologies!!
There's another delay, realizing this has weighed on his mind more than he thought.]
I had a power like this in my home, but it only allowed me to see the past. Myself and the others from my realm that are here, we all had the same power. When I asked them if it manifested they told me it didn't, but what I've seen has been too similar too it for me to disregard.
So you think it's returned but in a different form? That would be the first example of such a variation I've heard of, but considering the city's circumstances it doesn't sound impossible by any means.
Possibly, but thus far it has only happened in dreams. The Echo, we called it. When visions of the past appeared to me in my home, I was conscious but they would render me incapable of any action. It was rare, but not unheard of to see the past in a dream.
The Echo manifested in a number of ways and this was only one such ability it granted those who had it. It could vary from person to person, for example a woman named Mikoto Jinba had it but could view potential futures and so long as I was near her, I would see them as well.
But she was the only one that I knew who could. Before last month I was never able to see into the future, only the past. Regardless of what I see, however, the way they look and feel are nearly identical to the Echo aside from the lack of clarity.
Sounds like a proper headache no matter how it manifests. Although, probably better to have it relegated to dreams than some other more inconvenient timing.
[he has no idea]
I can't claim I'd be surprised if something about this place changed the way it presents information; whether that means changing what you're capable of seeing or when you see it.
It is, I'll admit. I was hoping it wouldn't return to me, but I wasn't so fortunate. It was frustrating and invasive. Overwhelming. Still, so long as I have the ability I'll make myself useful.
An energy source. That is what I saw, like energy was being drawn from a powerful source. Crystals were used in my realm as a source for incredible power, but I don't know for sure whether or not they're connected.
I wouldn't recommend it to anyone, nor do I blame you for warning me of it when I proposed contracting with Caster.
[Kind of helped that he was used to it, even if it meant the threat of his past being exposed.
Yet another delay. All this time and he still had trouble processing this agitation in his body and this weight on his heart. It couldn't be helped, he had this power now. He should simply deal with it.
But he could not pinpoint the fact that he didn't like it. Having this power given to him yet again without his consent, even if he could use it to be... useful.]
I know it's difficult. Probably more so when there isn't a concrete source of said memories to make it easier to anticipate.
You know my door's open to you whenever, right? Now, in the future, whatever you need. If you're having trouble, you can come talk to me if it'll help.
I'm not sure how I feel. I've had trouble for most of my life figuring it out, but I often lack the time to think about it. There is nothing I can do about having this ability save for making use of it. I am glad to do so.
Yes. And both here and in my home I had no control over when it happened or what I saw. I should be thankful that it has only happened twice thus far and that what I see here isn't as vivid as what the Echo gave.
[He could shove the overwhelming emotion back but it would explode whether he had the time for it or not.]
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If you want to talk, I'm not busy.
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I'll be fine, I think. [lol. lmao, even. you may even say rofl.] This began last month and I was unsure what it was. The more I considered it, the less I could dismiss it as coincidence.
I didn't want to concern anyone, so I felt it best to keep the rest of what I said private. I'm sorry.
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[He prepares for the scoldings with the apologies not the scoldings FOR the apologies!!
There's another delay, realizing this has weighed on his mind more than he thought.]
I had a power like this in my home, but it only allowed me to see the past. Myself and the others from my realm that are here, we all had the same power. When I asked them if it manifested they told me it didn't, but what I've seen has been too similar too it for me to disregard.
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The Echo manifested in a number of ways and this was only one such ability it granted those who had it. It could vary from person to person, for example a woman named Mikoto Jinba had it but could view potential futures and so long as I was near her, I would see them as well.
But she was the only one that I knew who could. Before last month I was never able to see into the future, only the past. Regardless of what I see, however, the way they look and feel are nearly identical to the Echo aside from the lack of clarity.
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[he has no idea]
I can't claim I'd be surprised if something about this place changed the way it presents information; whether that means changing what you're capable of seeing or when you see it.
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It is, I'll admit. I was hoping it wouldn't return to me, but I wasn't so fortunate. It was frustrating and invasive. Overwhelming. Still, so long as I have the ability I'll make myself useful.
An energy source. That is what I saw, like energy was being drawn from a powerful source. Crystals were used in my realm as a source for incredible power, but I don't know for sure whether or not they're connected.
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Are you sure you're alright?
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[Kind of helped that he was used to it, even if it meant the threat of his past being exposed.
Yet another delay. All this time and he still had trouble processing this agitation in his body and this weight on his heart. It couldn't be helped, he had this power now. He should simply deal with it.
But he could not pinpoint the fact that he didn't like it. Having this power given to him yet again without his consent, even if he could use it to be... useful.]
I'm not sure. But I will be.
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You know my door's open to you whenever, right? Now, in the future, whatever you need. If you're having trouble, you can come talk to me if it'll help.
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I'm not sure how I feel. I've had trouble for most of my life figuring it out, but I often lack the time to think about it. There is nothing I can do about having this ability save for making use of it. I am glad to do so.
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Whatever I feel about it does not feel good.
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[He could shove the overwhelming emotion back but it would explode whether he had the time for it or not.]
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I can?
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Of course. Human emotion is never black and white. Gratitude and regret can coexist, even if it feels incredibly complex.
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