[They're still in the process of getting all of Takame's furniture and things packed and moved to Yusuke's apartment (not that he has a lot, they're just both sore and injured and recovering), but Yusuke has decided it's time for a break. They have the kotatsu and Takame's clothing brought over, they can take a break.
He gently tugs Takame down onto his sofa, leaning against him with a sigh.]
[Takame didn't mind Yusuke taking a break. Under any other circumstance he woukd have kept working, but Yusuke would not allow it and he knew he wasn't in the state for it.
He wasn't in the state for much of anything save for letting himself be tugged to the couch. After all was said and done Takame barely spoke a word, even to Yusuke. The pain, both emotional and physical, still lingered heavily and he didn't know how to process the former.
He just didn't know what to say for himself, letting out a sigh of his own but quieter and much less relieved.]
Ah...! [The kiss caught him a but by surprise. It also gave him a short-lived light feeling away from all the weight on his chest.
Not that it made him any better at decision making.]
... Whatever you would like is fine. [A long pause as a single preference came to mind. At least in part from him remembering the out of place question Shroud presented and the mention of "a treat" after a hard mission, thanks cryptid-san.]
And I am thankful for that. Truly, I am. You risked much to save me.
[Another long pause.]
I meant... everything that place was. The images of people taken and warped in the Castrum, the Weapon you saw... and. [Recalling it made him start to shake.]
That shadow of myself. That side of me, I... I never wished for anyone to see that. Or for anyone to get hurt, I... I'm sorry.
I didn't know this would happen. I volunteered for the sake of stopping whatever Zodiac had in store. To my knowledge, each of us were none the wiser even the Order's agent himself.
[Takame didn't know Jusis well, but it's very hard to feign the absolute shock they all had.]
I wanted to do what I could to keep everyone safe. To keep you safe.
I see. So long as that was accomplished, what I went through was a small price to pay. [At the cost of someone's life, but indeed they got it away. He's glad for that. And he could not mourn every casualty. Hells, he struggled to mourn one most days.
And yet here he was falling into his worst habits, ignoring his own feelings but then jumping right into concern for others.]
I pray that the others will recover from their affairs. [Jusis, the young man, and especially Waver. Takame knew he didn't think well of himself and shuddered to imagine what his friend experienced. As much as he wished to reach out, he would give space.]
I... [He had to be called out to be aware that he was dismissing himself. It was just the simplest path. And at his core he was a worrywart. It was the older brother in him, perhaps.
He assumed he was older than the others involved in the mission anyway. At least by now. Still, he gave a weak nod.]
Alright... I'm... not used to it. [AKA he still felt he didn't deserve it.]
[He shrunk into himself again, hand moving to fiddle with his cast before he forced himself not to. The tail will speak for him instead.]
It isn't easy. [Said at least in part as if warning Yusuke. But half as just a matter of fact. Deep in his heart, Takame wanted to ask if Yusuke was sure he wanted to be with him. He held the question back.]
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He gently tugs Takame down onto his sofa, leaning against him with a sigh.]
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He wasn't in the state for much of anything save for letting himself be tugged to the couch. After all was said and done Takame barely spoke a word, even to Yusuke. The pain, both emotional and physical, still lingered heavily and he didn't know how to process the former.
He just didn't know what to say for himself, letting out a sigh of his own but quieter and much less relieved.]
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[He just shuffled uncomfortably with the cast Will and the young wing-headed lady applied to his left arm.]
I... [Showing his face in public right now was not something he wished to do. Though he despised denying anyone what they would ask of him.]
Perhaps something... simpler for now. [He sounded apologetic and was.]
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[A kiss.]
What would you like?
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Not that it made him any better at decision making.]
... Whatever you would like is fine. [A long pause as a single preference came to mind. At least in part from him remembering the out of place question Shroud presented and the mention of "a treat" after a hard mission, thanks cryptid-san.]
Something with meat.
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That would be most things. Spicy or not?
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... Red meat. [he may not be a Dragon but he's a dragon, you feel] Spicy is fine.
[More fiddling with his cast. He was not used to this. You know, stating his preferences when he felt more unworthy of them than ever?]
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[Yusuke reaches out to stop Takame from fiddling with his cast.]
Let me know if you think of anything else you want, dinner or otherwise, Takame.
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Thank you... I... I'm sorry.
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[He began to shrink into himself, going quiet for a moment long enough to become awkward.]
For what you had to see in that place you rescued me from.
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[Because clearly that's the problem, and not what was seen?]
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And I am thankful for that. Truly, I am. You risked much to save me.
[Another long pause.]
I meant... everything that place was. The images of people taken and warped in the Castrum, the Weapon you saw... and. [Recalling it made him start to shake.]
That shadow of myself. That side of me, I... I never wished for anyone to see that. Or for anyone to get hurt, I... I'm sorry.
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[The slightest hint of a "and you better not have known" in his words.]
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[Takame didn't know Jusis well, but it's very hard to feign the absolute shock they all had.]
I wanted to do what I could to keep everyone safe. To keep you safe.
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And yet here he was falling into his worst habits, ignoring his own feelings but then jumping right into concern for others.]
I pray that the others will recover from their affairs. [Jusis, the young man, and especially Waver. Takame knew he didn't think well of himself and shuddered to imagine what his friend experienced. As much as he wished to reach out, he would give space.]
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He assumed he was older than the others involved in the mission anyway. At least by now. Still, he gave a weak nod.]
Alright... I'm... not used to it. [AKA he still felt he didn't deserve it.]
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[He kind of did get a crash course in your psyche.]
But I'll help you get used to it, Takame. I want to.
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[He shrunk into himself again, hand moving to fiddle with his cast before he forced himself not to. The tail will speak for him instead.]
It isn't easy. [Said at least in part as if warning Yusuke. But half as just a matter of fact. Deep in his heart, Takame wanted to ask if Yusuke was sure he wanted to be with him. He held the question back.]
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[Why did that... catch him so off guard? Forgive him while he mentally scrambles a bit. So much for holding the question back.]
I... that is, are you sure you...? [He shut his mouth quickly, afraid he'll offend Yusuke. And he kept it shut for a while.]
I-I'm. I... if you're sure.
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